Guys, I appreciate if you don't make comments after this because of the deep thoughts of mine. If you're going to say stuff about me, then I suggest you don't read at all.

To be honest, I'm getting tired. I know people won't get along all the time but this I feel that there's no point in thinking it's going to get better. I'm tired of being involved in their stupid arguments and I'd rather to die or become kidnapped instead of enduring these stupid fights. I know, I'm cold. But if you knew my condition, you would want to be in my shoes too.

The simplest things I do, I get shouted for. Even when I didn't want to do it. The hardest things I do, it never gets noticed at all. I hate having to communicate for the two because of problems. Isn't that immature? If they were proper parents, they would talk and solve it for themselves instead of putting a kid into their speaking opinions and having to deliver each other's messages. But when they communicate, they tend to shout at each other instead.

I'm not sure whether I want to cry or hit something. I hope this loud music deafens me and I can never hear the words they speak. I hope something will somehow stop me from my eyes seeing such violentness. That's right. I'm not afraid of becoming deaf or blind any more. I hate being compared to someone when I truly know, they're a lazier person than I am. (And I am lazy like a snail.) My parents don't even give the thought to understand my stages of growing up, I'll cry more, I'll get more tired, I'll snap at people easily. They'll still think I'm a 5 year-old.

I hate having to endure this everyday. It seems like the same dreaded day goes by, only the dates change. It's hard to even swallow my throat - seeing I have to live this life. You call him selfish when you're just as selfish yourself. I'm forced to do what they want me to do. It clashes. I'm stuck and I pray something will happen to stop tears flowing but in reality, the tears will carry on falling out and nothing better will happen.